perfect time

Imagine sitting in the car in pouring rain, the music turned up high and you're chewing on mocha chocolate ... I could sit there for ever ...

alert!

Is it true? Do I run in the opposite direction when things are going just right? Does it suffocate me or am I scared? This is bad! I mean if it's true then I need to do something about it ... but how do I really know?

کاریکاتور

genographic

This is so cool, I think every once in a while you need a cue like this so you remember how far we have come and how we have evolved into the civilization we are now ...

push!

I love it! I never seize to surprise myself ... I just get up one morning and decide to do something I had been thinking over and over about ... and by afternoon it's done, something I had thought about for so long ... what if I could do this everyday?! What would become of my life ...

celebrity

I jumped out of my chair with his scream, it was unusual even for my brother. He rushed into my room yelling I'm in the video! I'm in the clip! ... a while ago he went for an audition and was told that he might be in the video clip for Nickleback's new single Savin' me ... seems like he made it, and now he's our celebrity! I got a signature from him last night, you never know, a lot of people started off as extras!

forever and for always

In your heart, I can still hear
a beat for every time you kiss me
And when we're apart,
I know how much you miss me
I can feel your love for me in your heart

In your eyes, I can still see
the look of the one who really loves me
The one who wouldn't put anything
else in the world above me
(I can still see love for me) I can
still see love for me in your eyes

- Shania Twain

strings

You just have to be inside me to know how I feel about the guitar ...

هنوز

نه اینکه داشته باشم خیلی کار کنم یا یه همچین چیزی، نه. فقط نمی دونم چرا این قایق سواری پا نمی ده. خیلی هوس کرده بودم، نمی دونم چرا و حالا بدجوری رو دلم مونده

grace

Thank you, thank you, thank you for all I have ... I am happy and healthy and I live in a beautiful city with wonderful people ...

And if you're wondering, no, nothing new has happened and there is no news of any kind, it's just that ... looking at the life I have, I feel so blessed ...

nearly there

I am almost convinced that I should do this. The point being, I can't find a reason I should refrain. Well, supposing it might not go as planned is not a valid reason. And as long as I don't try I'll never know ... besides, I'm feeling a little less resistance in me, I'll take it as a good sign, maybe it is time ...

Tyra

As you may know the previous actress/model now has a TV talk show of her own, The Tyra Banks Show. It just happens that CTV puts the show on around the time that I feel like sitting in front of the TV and resting a little bit ...
I used to think of her as a typical model who got caught in the excitement of doing TV business like many others in her profession. I didn't even credit her enough to agree that she is the teenagers' Oprah. But that changed over time. Although I still wouldn't say I eagerly follow her shows or that I would take advice from her, it now seems to me that she understands people, or at least Americans, better than the average person ... she has insight into the problems and can find, well, at least short time solutions ...
One reason I started writing this post was that I am impressed by what she said on her show today. She was interviewing a group of prostitutes and the manager of the ranch as they called it - in Nevada prostitution is legal, and these people were trying to convince everyone to look at it as any other business! Ugh!!! She made it clear that she didn't agree it was so and said something along the lines of: I can understand why guys would go to a prostitute, although I don't agree with the reason and I don't like it, but what I don't understand is how you girls actually do this!
I really liked how she brought up this subject, introduced the business and although they were feeling good about themselves, made them look the idiots they were!

bold

We had a guest speaker today, a very busy meeting, a very interesting one ... but I help couldn't noticing that except for the 2 ladies and the 2 young men, all the professors were bald, that even includes the speaker who wasn't that old! Does this have to do with the school or the university? I'll have to check computing science to see if it has to do with the school and then I can look into the ECE department at UBC ...

P.S. thanks to Roozbeh for the correction!

smart!

So me and my brother were playing around with our cell phones. I was showing him how smart my phone is and I was saying that I keep all my contacts on the phone memory not on the SIM card. We decided to switch our SIM cards to check something and guess what I did?! Without coping the contacts to the SIM card I took out the battery! And now smart me is left with a cell phone and no contact information on it!! Oh dear, I am sure there are some phone numbers I don't have anywhere else ... I might have to send out an email and ask everyone for their number, not such a smart idea though is it?!

P.S. the above was a rather immature post, especially considering that I claim to know something about these devices - again emphasizing the not so smart decisions I make! Having decided the worst thing taking out the battery would do was to lock the memory, not delete it, I was left to figure what had happened. After fiddling with the phone for a while I realized I needed a security code which I later discovered I could look up on the web ... aside for being an unhappy me for a few hours, everything is fine now! Hurray!

unraveled

It's a classic, I know. Am I too unwilling to try or should I really trust my gut feeling? Or maybe there is nothing to think about so much!

farewell

He was in the military and it was illegal for him to leave the country. His parents didn't know he was leaving, they found out when he and his family were safely in Canada. After years his mother was going to visit him, she died on that day ... they never had a chance to say goodbye, neither when he left nor when she did ...

Oscar Wilde

"Ambition is the last refuge of failure"

دلدار

گر گناهست به دلدار سپردن دل

شاد از آنیم که فرخنده گناهی کردیم

-نیما جهان بین

long time due

Since I came to SFU I had always wanted to go into the cleanroom. All the other labs and equipments you can just walk in and examine yourself, but with the cleanroom, at least I preferred to go in with someone else.
Finally today I spent about 2 hours in there with a friend. I was shown all the equipment and we actually sat there as they deposited material onto her wafer ... it was fun ... and now I have seen everything in all the engineering labs at school ... it has to count for something, right?!

emerging technologies

Is this cool or what!

shuffle

What if I am uncomfortable doing something? What if I feel scared? Is it that hard to understand?

royal

I had never seen a sky so blue in my life until I saw the sky here, I wish you could all see this beauty ...

ads

You make your way through life, deciding who you are, how you feel, and what you believe in. Sure, it's hard, but you do what you think is right ... and then it goes on: if you are facing the pressure of an unwanted pregnancy ... it's a crisis line ad.

The other one I like is for a brand of energy bars, I like the part where it says ... because when you make healthy choices, others follow ... it's true, others do follow ...

hehe!

Every once in while that your life seems all in order and things all in place, you get that tickle inside you. The tickle that says do something wild, well, as wild as it can get for you. Considering me, the typical normal life I lead, wild isn't to far of a stretch ...
I have always thought I have a rather clear idea of the things I want in life. Whenever the tickle comes along, I think that may be I should give myself more wiggle room. Usually that is followed by a few days of unprecedented activity and then, and then something comes up and reassures me I still want what I thought I did and life goes back to normal ...
The happy feeling inside me, even when it comes from a failure in what I tried as a digression of normal life, makes me strong, makes me know me better and makes me want to shout how lucky I feel ...

hearts

Happy Valentine's

expectations

I had prepared myself to hear my supervisor say .. and is that all you've done in the past month? He's been away for a month and trust me I've been going round in circles.

I went into his office with a big smile painted on my face since the weather was beautiful and I had had a good time in the lab all day. What a pleasant surprise, I was just finishing an email to you!

He talked about his trip for a while and then said Ok, let's talk about you. You are looking very nice, your hair and everything ... Nice comments aren't unusual from him, but this was a little stronger and non-academic. A comment of course I enjoyed since it was coming from him, the beautiful person he is.

After my looks the next topic was my trip to Vegas, which of course he arranged a travel advance check for any amount I wanted. Ok, I said to myself, we are getting to the terrible part now.

I started talking about what I had done while he was away which I could have summarized in nothing but then it wouldn't look good! I just gave him a few ideas which had crashed and ... guess what he said?! You are brilliant, you are really good at absorbing ideas and coming up with new ones. I knew you were going to be wonderful!

I came out of his office with an even bigger smile, now I had the rest of the day to rest since I had worked so hard while he was away ... who knew the 13th would be such a good day ...

خواب

دیشب خواب یه آب خیلی روشن دیدم، خیلی صاف بود. الان هم یادمه چقدر لذت بردم از نگاه کردن بهش. یه نفر اومد دوتا مار از آب گرفت و نشونم داد. اصلا نمی ترسیدم حتی وقتی ماره خودش رو خم و راست می کرد - که البته در زندگی واقعی خیلی بعیده! خلاصه مارها رو نشون من داد و تایید گرفت واسه یه چیزی که اصلا یادم نیست چی بود.
تعبیر: آب که تعبیرش روشنی است مار هم که تعبیرش آبادی و پول است! خوشمان آمد، می گم بیشتر بخوابم ... البته نکته دیگری هست می گن خواب رو نباید تعریف کرد که تعبیر بشه. خلاصه اگه خواب من هم تعبیر نشد تقصیر شما

greif

He thinks he is ok, he thinks he is strong enough to get through. I can see it in his words that he is grieving, in a special way of his he is grieving. He lost someone he really looked up to, someone he thought of as a role model ... no matter how many times he says over and over that he will be in heaven waiting for me and I will join him one day, the pain and sorrow fills his warm heart day and night ... I wish I could help him grieve, I wish I could help him pull through ...

motivation

You have to feel very strongly about something to stay up all night for it, so why can't I respect his draw? Every time I feel like saying Don't you have anything better or more important to do? What stops me is that I don't want him to feel I am not so fond of it, and truly, it is none of my business ... or may be I don't know him well enough, people usually have reasons for what they care about ...

Torino 2006

Today was the opening of the Turin winter Olympic games. Beautiful, just beautiful. They carried the flag, step by step, hand to hand, among the colors and the music, in love and peace. I wish we could always be so united ...

You may say I'm a dreamer
but I'm not the only one
I hope someday you will join us
and the world will be one

- John Lennon


The next winter games will be here, although I wasn't a supporter, now that it's happening I might as well enjoy!

professional

I now understand very well the reason you are not supposed to have intimate relationships with your doctor, your boss and the like. It's uncomfortable. I had never thought of it until today. Otherwise put, it had never come up until today.
In these cases, there is a certain safety and trust you need to feel. It has to be away from your emotional ties. Having an intimate relation with the person who somehow has a responsibility towards you can affect the level of protection you need from these people, since both ends tend to confuse emotions with the nature of the intended relationship ... good thing the people before us had thought of that, or may be they learnt the hard way ...

mutual

I talked to her, she thought the relationship was just a rebound, nothing major, and she kind of regretted getting into it in the first place. However, she justified it by saying she had gone through a messy break up and so she needed someone ...
I talked to him, he thought they were very serious. He was thinking of proposing to her and he had dreamt about the house they were going to buy and how happy they were going to be with their kids and all ...

I talked to him, he wasn't over it yet, he thought they were a good match. What's more, he was now too afraid to be with anyone like her. He's miserable ...
I talked to her, she thought they were so wrong together. She respected him a lot, but she couldn't think of anything to hold them together ...

I talked to her, she thought they were doing fine, she never saw this coming ...
I talked to him, he had all the nice things in the world to say about her but he thought he didn't want to try, he didn't want to risk going through all the pain ...

I know all these people, and if it were before I would say they probably knew very well what they were doing. Talking to them made me realize how distant we are even when we look as if we are close ... I wonder if the opposite is true?

happy mistake

The graduate secretary's email is ensc-grad and the graduate students' mailing list is enscgrad. It happens rather frequently that people send an email to the wrong email address. Every once in a while I reply to one of these emails explaining the difference. In order to prevent the mistake myself, I always use the graduate secretary's name to find the email address.
But as we all know, what goes around comes around. So today I sent an email to the graduate students - who are by the way rather used to getting emails from me - in stead of the secretary. You won't believe the pile of hilarious emails I got back. It's fun to make a mistake like this every once in a while. Good thing it wasn't anything controversial or personal!

hello people!

After recent developments in the 3rd generation of wireless, more and more wireless companies are offering international roaming. Whether it's in the form of permanent, rental, cell phone, blackberry or any other shape or size is the customer's choice.
I am considering a trip back home sometime in the summer, so I thought to check out the deals I can get here. Knowing that it might not be a great idea I started browsing the web ... although the website spelled communicated wrong, it had rentals for Iran at US$1.6/minute ... not bad, at least it's possible!

dance me

The guy who wrote Dance Me to the End of Love, Leonard Cohen, was inducted into the hall of fame on the weekend ... what a memory, what a man, what a love ...

pleased

I like to write down this happy moment in life, I feel satisfied and tall. I was a little worried, but it's all resolved now and I feel peace inside me, just pure joy ... what have I done to deserve all this?

traffic sign

Where else in the world would you see a sign on city streets that says:

Tree
Work
Ahead

پس از تو

امروز صبح این ایمیل رو گرفتم، یه چیزاییش جالبه. می گه بعد از مردن تو:
آنجه اهمیت خواهد داشت چیزی نیست که آن را خریداری می کنی بلکه آنچیزی است که خودت بنیان می نهی، چیزی نیست که به دست می آوری بلکه چیزی است که به دیگران می بخشی
آنچه اهمیت خواهد داشت موفقیت تو نیست بلکه اهمیت و معنای وجودی توست
آنچه اهمیت خواهد داشت چیزی نیست که آموخته ای بلکه آن چیزی است که آموزش داده ای
آنچه اهمیت خواهد داشت لیاقت و توانایی ظاهری تو نیست بلکه شخصیت و ماهیت درونی توست
آنچه اهمیت خواهد داشت تعداد افرادی نیست که تو می شناسی بلکه تعداد افرادی است که وقتی از میان آنها رفته ای کمبود تو را حس خواهند کرد
آنچه اهمیت خواهد داشت خاطرات تو نیست بلکه خاطرات آنانی است که به وجودت عشق می ورزیدند
آنچه اهمیت خواهد داشت این است که در چه مدتی توسط چه کسی و برای چه چیزی در یاد و خاطره ها زنده خواهی شد
زندگی ای که دارای اهمیت باشد به صورت تصادفی اتفاق نمی افتد این یک موضوع اتفاقی نیست بلکه نتیجه یک انتخاب است

count

Did you realize what just happened?! With David Emerson walking to the Conservative side, the Tories and the NDP just need to convince the single independent MP to have half the votes in the house of parliament. This guy Harper scares me!

دانمارکی

قرار است از امروز به بعد به شیرینی دانمارکی بگیم شیرینی گل محمدی! از خودم نگفتم به خدا

council

Right now I can't figure if I am confused or some things have changed about the way I think. I have to sort most of it out by tomorrow, I should know what I am going to talk about, or should I?

image

I don't even want to be perfect, I don't even believe that it exists. I really just want to be normal, just a human being with all the imperfections, mistakes, wrongs and faults. That's what I like about life, being imperfect is ok.
Why do I keep getting this from everyone? This expectation, this perception, that I have it all and that I should have it all, I DON'T and I WON'T! Give me a minute and I'll write you a list with a hundred and one of my flaws on it, is it that hard to see?
God! what am I to do?! It used to be cute, it used to be that everyone would praise what I do and I would get to be the angel. They still praise what I do, but it's not cute any more. It deprives me of real life, things I want to do, mistakes I want to make ... I'll have to find a way to get past it ...


I'm only human
Of flesh and blood I'm made
I'm only human what am I suppose to do
Born to make mistakes (tell me whatcha gonna do?)

- Human, Craig David

transparent

People express themselves differently, very differently. When you interact with someone what you should really be hearing is the underlying statements. It's not rocket science, really, it's easy. And no matter how hard they try to disguise it, you can see right through ...

too strong

Can you be too strong? Too strong for others to take? Too strong to be attainable?!
I should kick and scream right now, I don't know why I am acting so grown up! Why am I being so understanding? What is this? Truth be told, I don't want to be a grown up, I want to cry right now. So where are my tears? Have I accepted some things in life? Am I used to living? Or maybe it'll break out in a while, I'll have to wait and see ...

قایق

دلم قایق سواری می خواد، یه جا که ته آبش رو نبینم. می دونم فصلش نیست، ولی الان دلم قایق سواری می خواد. باید یه کاریش بکنم، اگه نه عقده ای می شم تا تابستون

پرونده اتمی

آقای رفسنجانی: "وارد کردن شورای امنیت به پرونده ایران اشتباه بزرگی است"
خبرها ببینید به کجا رسیده

ذوق

زنگ زدم بهشون که بریم بیرون. با یه شوق خاصی گفت: باید با خانم صحبت کنم. فقط خدا می دونه من چقدر خوشحالم واسشون

without sunshine

Apparently this guy thinks the day is incomplete without sunshine, I bet we're all staying young, as long as everyone agrees not to count the incomplete days!

How do I begin to stop loving you?
How do I go on by letting go?
How do I pretend I know what to do?
And deep inside I know that I don't.

My heart is weak
Too tired to sleep
I'm incomplete
Like a day without sunshine
God only knows
This faded soul will stand alone
Waiting on sunshine.

How do I forget to remember you?
To tell me how to mend a broken heart
How can I explain what I'm going through?
It's like trying to find a shadow in the dark.

- Sunshine by Hipjoint

record

There is a new Rubik's cube record! 11.13 seconds! It takes me ... well let's not talk about it ...

instructions!

The letter said you can't take bags in, and the guard reminded that to everyone several times. Yet, I took in a big red bag, not a purse, a bag!