Monday, April 25, 2005

on the road

... so finally the semester is over. I said I would get on the road as soon as I could and now I am. You won't believe how happy I am. We, i.e. me and a group of wonderful people, are driving North to Alberta. We will be stopping on the way in a few places. It's all so wonderful and ... I really can't ask for anything more ... the road brings back a lot of great memories and reminds me of a lot of music ... be back in a week or so ...

Sunday, April 24, 2005

am i strange?

The little folks on the bus had me thinking for a while. I always had the understanding that I communicate with a very small, specific group of people. A bunch of well educated engineers (or engineers to be) in an age range of 18 to 60 - don't let the age range fool you they have a lot in common. Basically clones of a prototype. I tried to get a feeling for the 99.9% of the rest of the community that surrounds me by talking to everyday people whenever I could.
All of that in mind, I had not realized how moving to Canada had narrowed down the group of people I was in touch with. My close friends, which are by the way quite a big group, are electrical and computer engineering students who graduated from Sharif and are now graduate students somewhere in the world. A step further, my other friends, with a few exceptions, are Sharif graduates who are also graduate students mostly in North America. How is that for diversity?!
Of course among my friends are people who are not engineers, who are not students, who .... but very few. Is this ok? Will I end up a normal person? These were things I was thinking to myself as I was walking in the mall shopping for clothes and shoes. Every once in a while someone would catch my eye and I would start thinking how different our worlds are! Am I a stranger to the outside world? Am I too distant from the average person? Is it alright to be such a minority or should I start doing something about it? Although I do feel rather comfortable as is, is there something that I am missing out on?

Friday, April 22, 2005

chatter

I got on the bus as usual for the 10 minute ride to school. The unusual part about it was that there were about 30 elementary students on the bus, coming to see what university was like. And they were noisy. There was a constant chatter. Long time since I heard anything of that nature. I mean we do get together with friends in big groups, but talking adults sounds different from kids gabbing and telling made up stories. It was so joyful. I was so energetic when I got to school. I hope they enjoy their day on campus.

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

mistakes

"The ability to make mistakes is the membership requirement, the willingness to admit it gets you extra points."

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

good news

I just love this place I live in. Now I can even work while I study and they want me to stay ...


Stanley Park, Vancouver, BC, Canada

Monday, April 18, 2005

sensible?

"When she realized that she was surrounded by nothingness, she wanted to hug her own body, only now she realized that her body was the hole and the hole was her. The only clear thing in the midst of total darkness was her voice, trapped in her throat, trying to remember how to cry out for help ... but in what language?" (Rodriguez 1997, 35)


"Oppressed groups ideas are frequently placed in the situation of being listened to only if we frame our ideas in the language that is familiar to and comfortable for a dominant group. This requirement often changes the meaning of our ideas and works to elevate the ideas of dominant groups." (Collins 1990, xiii)

Sunday, April 17, 2005

a dancer

See dancing is so good for you ... like I need a reason to dance or I need to convince someone ...

Saturday, April 16, 2005

... زندگی یعنی

زندگی یعنی، یک سار پرید
از چه دل تنگ شدی؟
،دل خوشیها کم نیست
،مثلا این خورشید
،کودک پس فردا
..... کفتر آن هفته
سهراب سپهری -

Thursday, April 14, 2005

to be a lady

On the weekend, chatting with a group of friends, we somehow ended up talking about the time when the menus handed out to men and women in restaurants were different. Ladies' menus didn't have prices on them or at least the lady would have to ask if she wanted a menu with prices. Every once in a while you can still find one of those places, but it's rather outdated. Of course, I am a little more concerned about the general change in attitude than actually having dollar signs and numbers sitting on my menu.
I though about the whole concept a little more, there are a lot of other examples and I am not really sure I am very pleased about all of what is politically known as being a modern woman.
It seems I am not the only one. I don't know why people would think it opposes the modern lifestyle to be a lady. Or may be all of us are just confused with the rapid changes. May be we all still do want the same thing. Sometimes I feel society hasn't yet established a proper understanding of a career woman and where on the path between the traditional stay at home mom and a man she stands ....

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

as the world turns

... sometimes you need a push to get to the next stage, sometimes people come in to your life to serve that purpose, sometimes you've got to trust life, and sometimes you just have to wait for another day ....


The other night Robin Williams was telling Jay Leno about his son's future job when he graduates as a linguist: "He'll probably open a sentence repair shop."

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

می دانم می آیی

گر دل من بی قراری می کند    نوبهار است و بهاری* می کند
 
و چنان بی تابم...
که دلم می خواهد            
بدوم تا ته دشت                        
بروم تا سر کوه                                     
سهراب سپهری -                                                   
 
متاسفانه اصلا یادم نیست این آهنگ رو از کجا آوردم*

Monday, April 11, 2005

shaking hands?

Look what the Pope did to the world leaders. And our dearest President Khatami even had a chance to socially engage with President Katzav. Whether they actually shook hands or not has left everyone in doubt. Khatami has been reported to deny the allegation and on the other side Katzav sounded quite excited about it. School kids are we now?
I truly appreciate Bashar Assad's approach. Yes I did it; but it didn't mean anything ... Well put! Only if he could teach his Iranian counterpart ....

Sunday, April 10, 2005

a royal wedding

Delayed twice, Charles and Camilla wed yesterday. The Queen took part in the blessing but not the civil ceremony. To me, this shows Her mixed emotions. No comments up to this day, it was made sure that a far distance was maintained between them.
The Queen loved Diana deeply. I too adored the beautiful princess of Wales. A wonderful caring person with a smile always painted on her face, no matter how life pressured her. On the other hand, I blame Camilla for some of what she went through, as she put it herself: "There were three of us in the marriage, it was a little crowded."
It took three months for Andrew Parker Bowls to start the paper work for divorce after Charles publicly announced his affair with at that time Mrs Parker Bowls. Amazingly in reply to the criticism on adultery, Charles said: "Do you seriously expect me to be the first Prince of Wales in history not to have a mistress?"
Her great-great grandmother was a mistress to Charles's great-great grandfather. And now Charles is buying back the jewelry that was exchanged at that time.
Camilla was both a nanny and a mistress to Charles, and an ever present shadow in Diana's life. Even on the day of her fairy tale wedding Diana knew that she wasn't the only woman in Charles's life. Referring to this, she later declared it the most emotional day of her life. She was the true Candle in the wind* ...

*curtsey of Mehdi

Saturday, April 09, 2005

بهار

و من عشق را از آنجا شناختم که هر سال بهار می آید
..... هر قدر که زمستان سخت بوده باشد

Friday, April 08, 2005

and it's over

..... خسته از درس و کتابم عشرتی خواهم حسابی

It's been a full week now that I have been complaining about the one single exam I have. It had been a long time since I last took a course. Even doing the assignments was a drag; although I will admit I really had a great time. And the instructor, he's awesome. He's a well known person in his field and even better, he thinks I'm good at what I do. He has known me for a while now, I wonder why he hasn't figured .... Anyway, the exam's today and then I have nothing else to complain about. I guess it'll be a break to the people around me ...

Thursday, April 07, 2005

a book about us

Dr Parin Dossa recently published a book. Can't wait to get my hands on it!

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

از مقامات شمس

ایام را از شما مبارک باد
ایام می آیند تا بر شما مبارک شوند
مبارک شمایید

Monday, April 04, 2005

musical memories

I listened to some music today. A more jazzy version than the one by Paul Anka which I knew, but the same tune. I thought I would never listen to that song again. I thought it would bring back too many bad memories. I hadn't thought about it in so long ... but the song made me think back and realize there are no strings, at least no more ... and I feel happy ... from inside ... deep deep inside I feel very happy as I had always felt... and there is nothing ... although I was never sure there ever was ... anyhow ... I feel great and that is all I need to know right now ... I hadn't noticed how it all became a distant memory ... I think I owe it to the great people around me, those whom I have known for long and the ones I am getting to know ...

Stanley Park, Vancouver, BC, Canada

Saturday, April 02, 2005

a lesson

I wish I would learn a lesson once and for all. It is rather strange when you have to go through a procedure many times and come to the same conclusion every time but start from square zero the next time anyhow. On the other hand it adds to the excitement in life; each time you go through all the anticipation. Anyway, I'm writing it down here so I might learn it better this time around.
I have over a dozen plants in my apartment. I take great care of them and adore each and every one. One of them is the stem of an Easter Lily I bought last year. It had flowers for a few months and then it was just leaves. But it was nice and green and happy, so I kept it.
About two weeks ago the leaves started to turn pail and fall off. I thought may be it's the change in weather. So I tried to keep an eye on it to see if it would probably need more water or ... But honestly after a while I lost hope. As I do, I talked to it a little hoping it would live; but nothing much changed.
Last night I sat next to it and opened my book to read and ... I couldn't believe my eyes. Two little stems had grown from the original stem. So tiny, so beautiful. I'm thrilled. But more than that, once again I came to see that there is always something great awaiting around the corner, I just need to be patient.

Friday, April 01, 2005

Pope John Paul II

When I was a kid, I used to think a lot about what I would do to make the world a better place to live in. I would dream of a world with no war where people cared for humanity.
I grew up to realize there were people who pursued this dream. I find pope John Paul II to be one of those. Although I don't approve of all his doctrinaire religious views, he stands for much of what I would personally describe as a true human being. A spiritual leader to the Catholic, his good will stretches wider than the scope of religion.
The youngest pope in modern history and the first non-Italian pope after 455 years, he preached love and friendship. He lived a life close to that of an ordinary person. As a pope he visited over 100 countries and met with political and religious leaders with a much broader view than any pontiff before him.
"He opposed the war in Iraq and was the first Pope to visit a mosque. He has also made conciliatory gestures towards the Jewish faith and tried to heal the 1,000-year-old rift with the Christian Orthodox churches."
And now his followers gather in St. Peter's square, looking up at his window and praying for him in whatever language their God speaks. He prayed for us all, so let us pray for him ... may he rest in peace ...

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