captive

People! What is this!? Now I don't even get to choose the template! Just bare with me, I might be able to figure something.

no falling leaves

I just called to say I Love You and I mean it from the bottom of my heart ... I couldn't turn the key and get out of the car. It was 16 years ago, I can't believe it, 16! A new country, a new land and a new language. I don't know what made my dad record the songs we were hearing as he drove me to school for the first time in this new territory of ours, but it sure helped keep those memories alive. I never forget ... and when the radio plays those old songs tears circle my eyes. Daddy's girl is all grown up now and no one knows that it's the child in her that walks her through the days of her life ...

connected

Give people the space and you'd be surprised the means they find to communicate with ...

شامه

... بوی دریا می آد

sunshine

I want to go out in the sun and dance. I can feel how happy my skin is with all this sun, I can't ask for anything more ...

memories

They found 7 min of motion picture from downtown Vancouver from 100 years ago. They went through the same route with the same camera settings today and made the One Century Later movie of it, how cute is that!

Not that this would shadow the biggest Sun Run to date, and it was awesome weather today ...

shores

Is it happening? Am I getting what I asked for? Finally! I guess I'll know in a while, but for the first time in my life I am calm, patient and understanding. Believe me, I have grown up so much that I can barely believe it myself!

overheard

As I drove into the gas station I read the price 116.5, as I lifted the nozzle I looked up again 110.5, did Harper hear that I am so upset with the gas prices?

politics

Harper promised tax cuts on fuel before he became prime minister, now he is just saying we should get used to the prices! And what's with getting so lovy dovy with Mulroney, everyone knows you are not environmental friendly!

reincarnation

Thank God I can always dance everything out of my system!

ad in the Peak

recursion

What did I just do? How come I am making so many decisions these days so easily? or maybe it's the right thing to do, it does feel ok ... maybe I have thought about it over and over before and it just happens that I'm taking action these days ... you never know ...

this one?

I am going to be playing around a little with the template until I get what I had back, forgive me for any inconvenience ...

change?

No people, I haven't decided to change my template to this dotty thing. Truth be told I couldn't publish for a few days and finally Mehdi proposed that the problem may be coming from my template, so I tried altering it to a default and here you are ... I'm working on it though, be back soon!

trouble

You know, some days no matter what you do everything turns out wrong! Yeah, I kind of had one of those today ...

out

I don't know why, but right now it feels like I am not living this life. Not in a bad way, it just feels that I am watching everything happen while I have no access, no ability and no desire to change anything. You wouldn't be able to tell from the outside, I look pretty much the way I usually do, but it feels like my mind is somewhere else, occupied with something else ... it's weird and calm where I am right now ... maybe these are the first signs of going crazy ...

destiny

I don't know how much I believe in destiny, in the fact that some things are just meant to be ... what I do know though is that everything lately has been happening so as to make me believe in it ... yet it's like I can't trust it. I keep telling myself that it's just a coincidence, it doesn't really mean anything ... on the other hand I can't fool myself, there is a tie between what goes on and what is distant, isn't there?

paradise

I can't believe how powerful some emotions can be, I still cry every time I think about it, after so many years ... what an ocean, what strength, ... no wonder I have always felt the sky is my limit ... nothing has tied me down ...

wrapped

I just might have become involved in something good ... I'll tell you if it goes through ...

a family

I went to a friends house, forget the reason ... there were two of us there who were not married. The average age of people there was about 5 years older than me and many of them had kids. My friend freaked out a little about the babies ... after a while I found myself in a conversation saying I am sure I'm ready for the baby, not that sure about the babies daddy ... I guess I am just used to saying that, the case has usually been that the daddy is not ready to be a dad ... we went to a coffee shop ... the label on my tea said a day full of promise ... I wonder what that was?! is?!

bliss

Who said happiness comes in forms you expect? I think if you have a specific shape and size in mind you'll never find it, just keep your heart open and see how it embraces joy ... even if it rains all day long day after day ...

timelines

I just went through a couple of days with no voice; I knew I was good at enjoying whatever hits me, but I would never have guessed I could have so much fun being sick. Not that I liked having a cold, that was miserable, but we laughed so much about the voice part. Maybe some of it was because I'd been away for a while and missed home ... anyway, that's behind me, oh and even the final exam I had is over. Now I have the final project and my desertion ... it's gonna be a long time till July ...

عادت

گهگاهی اتفاق می افته که به دلیلی از دلایل من صدام رو از دست می دم. اولین بار وقتی اتفاق افتاد که قرار بود یه شعر از بنده ناقابل رو توی شب شعری که برگزار می کردیم بخونم، بگذریم ... اینبار جالبتر از همه چیز واکنش بقیه است. هرکی باهام حرف می زنه رفته رقته آرومتر و آرومتر حرف می زنه تا مثل من آخرش داره زمزمه می کنه! چقدر عادتهامون به زندگیمون احاطه دارن و ما اصلا بهشون فکر نمی کنیم

miss you

I step off the train
I'm walking down your street again and past your door
But you don't live there any more
It's years since you've been there
But now you've disappeared somewhere like outer space
You've found some better place
And I miss you - like the deserts miss the rain
And I miss you - like the deserts miss the rain ....

- Missing, Todd Terry

Las Vegas

It was so different from what I had expected. Yes, there were neon lights and nightclubs, but there was so much more to see. Exhibitions, shows and spectacular music ... the dinner in Paris and the walk through Venice ... so romantic! I spent the nights walking on the strip and the days attending the conference ... it was fun and it was an awesome break. I tossed so many pennies into the water and made wishes over and over again ...
You know, I thought I'd be alone and I'd have to go around by myself. Good guessing from a friend, he said: "You, alone?! You'll find someone there." He was right, I did and what a great time we had ... what an awesome group of people ...
Now I'm sitting here in my friend's place updating my blog after a couple of days ... I guess I'll be glad to get back home, it's about time, although, I do have an exam when I get back ...

once upon a time

Tomorrow, Wednesday, April 5, 2006, at two minutes and three seconds past 1:00am, the time and date will be 01:02:03 04/05/06, you won't see a day like that in a long time!

بدرود

رفتم سبزه رو انداختم توی آب، چه هوایی! حالا می رم دوردورا سبزه گره بزنم، حافظ گفته خوب نمی شه که گوش ندم. نمی دونم اونجا چقدر به اینترنت بازی برسم، اگه همدیگه رو ندیدیم تا هفته دیگه فعلا خداحافظ

خاک را بدرودی کردم و شهر را
چرا که او، نه در زمین و شهر و نه در دیاران بود.

آسمان را بدرود کردم و مهتاب را
چرا که او، نه عطرِ ستاره نه آوازِ آسمان بود.

نه از جمعِ آدمیان نه از خیلِ فرشتگان بود،
که اینان هیمه‌ دوزخند
و آن یکان
در کاری بی‌اراده
به زمزمه‌ئی خواب‌آلوده
خدای را
تسبیح‌می‌گویند.

سرخوش و شادمانه فریادبرداشتم:

ای شعرهایِ من، سروده و ناسروده!
سلطنتِ شما را تردیدی نیست
اگر او به تنهایی
خواننده‌ شما باد!

شاملو -

خویش

امشب دور هم رسیدیم به اونجا که شروع کردیم به فال گرفتن:

ما آزموده ایم درین شهر بخت خویش ............ بیرون کشید باید از این ورطه رخت خویش

از بس که دست می گزم و آه میکشم ............. آتش زدم چو گل به دل لخت لخت خویش

دوشم ز بلبلی چه خوش آمد که می سرود ....... گل گوش پهن کرده ز شاخ درخت خویش

کای دل تو شاد باش که آن یار تند خوی ........ بسیار تند روی نشیند ز بخت خویش

خواهی که سخت و سست جهان بر تو بگذرد .. بگذر ز عهد سست و سخنهای سخت خویش

ای حافظ ار مراد میسر شدی مدام ................ جمشید نیز دور نماندی ز تخت خویش

بنظر می رسد که حافظ اولا کاملا به وضعیت موجود احاطه دارد و ثانیا موافق است که من سیزده رو خارج از ونکور بدر کنم، تا چه قبول افتد و چه در نظر آید

shattered

I'm just too honest, too pure, for the world I live in. Each time that someone betrays my trust I tell myself that it won't happen again, I tell myself that I will learn from them and act like they do ... but it's no use, when the time comes I am just a child with a heart of gold ... and they break my heart every time ... I spend time and delicacy piecing it together just to hand it to someone else who will do the same ... I wonder if a day will come that I just can't find all the pieces to put together ... will I have become one of them?

ویرانه

به من گفته بودند به آدمها اعتمادی نیست،
گفته بودند دلهاشان تنگ است
گمان کرده بودم چاره اش محبت است،
نمی دانستم سنگینیش را تاب نخواهند آورد

confession

To tell you the truth it came as a shock, I still don't know what I am going to do about it, I don't even know how I feel about it ... whatever, I'm leaving on Sunday and I am going to take a break from everything ...