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I don't know why, but right now it feels like I am not living this life. Not in a bad way, it just feels that I am watching everything happen while I have no access, no ability and no desire to change anything. You wouldn't be able to tell from the outside, I look pretty much the way I usually do, but it feels like my mind is somewhere else, occupied with something else ... it's weird and calm where I am right now ... maybe these are the first signs of going crazy ...