لانه

من فراموشی را از آن به خاطر سپردم که کبوتر افکارم هرگز به لانه باز نگشت

Pilea Cadierei

Some people, are so unique ...

You just ... love them so much ...

I know so many of these unique people ...

The feeling you have, when you have spent time with them ...

I must be one of the happiest beings on the planet ...

freckles

She stood in the sun at the intersection beside the left turn arrow. She was about 12 years old. I couldn't read the plaque she was holding, it probably said ...
I waived my hand at her and when I was giving her the money I said: "Buy yourself food with it, only food." She smiled, her beautiful eyes lit, the freckles on her face bounced and with all the innocence in the world she quietly said: "You can be sure, nothing bad. Just food." I held my tears, she was so young, the light turned green ....

... بیایی

گفته بودم تو بیایی غم دل با تو بگویم

..... چه بگویم غمم از دل برود چون تو بیایی

... without ...

The things that will destroy us are:

Politics without principles;
Pleasure without conscience;
Wealth without work;
Knowledge without character;
Business without morality;
Science without humanity; and
Worship without sacrifice.

--Mahatma Gandhi

* Curtsey of a dear friend.

i lied

I lied to get someone off my back. I had no choice, really. I had already tried other options ... But that doesn't help with me feeling bad about it ... I kind of ... I'll wait for the consequences ...

you'll think of me

I had listened to this song so many times, and I heard it again on the radio as I was driving about in the georgeous weather ... it made so much sence ... I'll leave it here for a dear friend to listen to ... we all know, life has ups and downs, but things always work themselves out somehow ... don't worry ... I know, believe me I do ...

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need 'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me ....

my star

I remember I once told someone who was ... well, I'll leave that ... I told him that everyone has a star in the sky. And I told him when you feel really unhappy with yourself you should remember that the star is still there shining down on you. It's hope in your heart and spirit in your life.
Last night I sat for a while and watched the sky, I am sure I saw mine ... now I know that it's not only in despair that your heart searches for the star ...

دوم خرداد

من سیاسی نمی نویسم اما یه چیزایی هست که نمی شه نگفت .... مرسی قلم

self destructive!

Some times I wonder if I am intentionally driving myself to craziness. I sit and think and think and think about some thing I have zero control over, which there is no use thinking about. It just drives me nuts!

Ha! Got it out. Now I can do something more productive. Hmmm, may be it's a mental exercise of it's own ...

دو بیتی

به جای نم به چشمم رود دادند

به آهم شعله جای دود دادند

مرا هیچ از نصیبم گله ای نیست

خلایق هرچه لایق بود دادند

نیما جهان بین

... brings back a world of memories. It was more than 10 years ago, the time when we would get together and read our work to one another ... Nima was good, real good ... I've heard he quit writing ... what a shame ...what great memories ...

how can i say no?!

How? Tears were rolling down my cheeks as the guy read the kids information to me. They called me again from World Vision today. A two year old boy from Tanzania who needs support just to live a normal life and go to school. Their region is affected seriously by HIV. It would be too selfish of me to refuse to give a little kid what he deserves. If it makes a difference in a persons life, I should be doing something about it. I am sure he will return the favor to society when he grows up. I'll have to figure something ...

bisexual cables!

Amir came to me yesterday looking for a connector which he later told me was one of the SMA series. It not only had two female ends but one side had a male section inside! I told him it's Canada and you should expect something like this. But when I think of it, that's quite something. Have all of these recent scandals confused us engineers too? Maybe some one should explain to us that cables ... are well different, and don't need to come in all possible ... combinations!

tears

He didn't know that he shouldn't walk away when tears came into her eyes. He should have held her and told her that everything will be ok. She just needed reassuring. She couldn't tell him, she wasn't strong enough. She wanted him to be strong. She now knows, but what good is that?
It's one of those things she and only she will know. And may be he thought he was being a gentleman and taking the pain away with him ... I, I can't do anything ... I can just sympathize, but what good is that?

آینه

..... آینه را دوست دارم چون من را همانطور که هستم می بینم، نه دروغی، نه تملقی

fairytale

May be the fairytale didn't exactly come true, or may be the castle isn't really a castle, so what? It can't keep me from dreaming ... I knew Santa wasn't real since I was a kid, so I am sure I can take a few more of those ... what matters is that a smile crawls over my face when I am thinking about life and that makes people smile right back at me ....

uneven

It has been some time now that I think I would like to have a child. Interestingly enough, the thought surprises almost everyone. My friends who are married don't seem to think of it as being so exciting; which makes me wonder, when it's time, will I still be so crazy about it?

hard sell

گروهی به جد و جهد گرفتند وصل دوست

گروه دگر حواله به تقدیر می کنند

It seemed like the more ways I found to say no, the more reasons he could find that we needed a meeting?! Don't get me wrong, it's work-related; but I still can't come to terms with the persuasiveness. I mean, I gave up!

He can be successful in any bussiness, what possibly can I teach him? Better, may be I can learn a thing or two!

heartbreak

Some things you have to do, you just have to. No matter how hard they are, no matter how your heart breaks, you just have to do it. They call it growing up. They call it taking responsibility. They say you have to make decisions. They say you have to do what is right, no matter how deep it hurts ... so tell me now, what else do I need to do? What's next?

measurable?

I took a test to Measure My Happiness. Not that I would expect otherwise but at the end it said: "you are extremely happy with your life." Happy now, eh?

The Canadian TIME magazine introduces Eight Steps Toward a More Satisfying Life:

1. Count your blessings.
2. Practice acts of kindness.
3. Savor life's joys.
4. Thank a mentor.
5. Learn to forgive.
6. Invest time and energy in friends and family.
7. Take care of your body.
8. Develop strategies for coping with stress and hardships.

I would add, listen to music. Here's an old one that is very relaxing and filled with great memories for me. I guess it's because dad loved it so much ... you know, there are some things that can now only live in memories, but they are joyful anyway ...

lines

There are thin lines in life, when you make a choice about the side you want to be on, there is usually no going back. I like the choices I make, at least most of them work out fine. And the ones which don't, well that's life ....

سیب

تو به من خندیدی

و نمی دانستی

من با چه دلهره

از باغچه همسایه

سیب را دزدیدم

من اندیشه کنان

غرق این پندارم

که چرا باغچه خانه ما

سیب نداشت

*یه قصه

مردی بود که زندگیش را با عشق و محبت پشت سر گذاشته بود وقتی مرد همه می گفتند به بهشت رفته است آدم مهربانی مثل او
حتما به بهشت میرفت رفتن به بهشت چندان برای این مرد مهم نبود اما به هر حال به بهشت رفت
درآن زمان بهشت هنوز به مرحله ی کیفیت فراگیر نرسیده بود استقبال از او با تشریفات مناسب انجام نشد دختری که باید او را راه میداد نگاه سریعی به فهرست نام ها انداخت ووقتی نام او را نیافت او را به دوزخ فرستاد
در دوزخ هیچ کس ازآدم دعوت نامه یا کارت شناسایی نمی خواهدهرکس به آنجا برسد می تواند وارد شود مرد وارد شد و آنجا ماند

چند روز بعد ابلیس با خشم به دروازه ی بهشت رفت و یقه پطرس قدیس را گرفت این کار شما تروریسم خالص است پطرس که نمیدانست ماجرا از چه قرار است پرسید چه شده ابلیس که از خشم قرمز شده بود گفت آن مرد را به دوزخ فرستاده اید و آمده و کار ما و زندگی ما را به هم زده از وقتی که رسیده نشسته و به حرف های دیگران گوش می دهد در چشمهایشان نگاه میکند به درد و دلشان میرسد حالا همه دارند در دوزخ با هم گفتگو میکنند هم را در آغوش می کشند و می بوسند دوزخ جای این کارها نیست لطفا این مرد را پس بگیرید

باچنان عشقی زندگی کن که حتی اگر بنا به تصادف در دوزخ افتادی خود شیطان تو را به بهشت بازگرداند

پائولو کوئلیو -

متن بدون تصحیح در اینجا نقل شده است*

view point

It's just a matter of how you see it, or where you stand. I should keep that in mind. It's hard sometimes, I forget.

I thought it was so wonderful that there were so many guys out in the shops looking for gifts for mother's day. As you walked around you could tell that most of them rarely ever come into the mall, walking around confused trying to get help from the sales people ... although picking out a nice gift is an art, I'm sure everyone appreciates the will and the effort ...
I was going to buy myself a sewing machine on behalf of my future husband and kids, you know just to save them the debt ... I didn't find anything I liked, I might try again tomorrow ...

ladybird

As I was walking home yesterday a tiny ladybird flew and sat on my shoulder. It was so young that it didn't have spots yet. I wonder, does it count? will it still bring me luck? I found another ladybird the other week. Now that I think of it luck is just pouring into my life ... No complaints!

P.S. I bought another Lily the other day. An orange 4" Lily. It has two flowers so far which smile at me as I watch TV on the couch.

my flower

My love of flowers .... I don't think there is anyone on the planet earth who doesn't like flowers, but I think I feel somehow more thrilled. May be I get it from my mum. Anyway, in one of our classes I once drew a flower - I am very bad at drawing - on the piece of paper I was taking notes on. I do that a lot, draw something or write poems on my notes. One of my lab-mates pinned the flower to our board. I can see it from where I sit at my computer. It makes me smile, everytime I look at it. That board, it's a very interesting place to spend some time. It has memories of times we went out or did something together. It has the menus of all the restaurants on campus and .... it continues to change, but my flower is a constant.

flexibility

"It is not the strongest of the species that survives, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change"

- Charles Darwin

IEEE potentials magazine

Not that it has anything to do with what Darwin said, but I took my car to a car wash today. The manual type, not the ones you drive in and the machines do all the work for you. The main reason was that I had always driven by that place and watched people wash their cars in the Sun and I really wanted to try it for myself. Anyway, I went alone ...
I didn't do an excellent job cleaning the car. It was too heavy a job for me alone. I mean it's ok considering all the dirt from our road trip, but not as clean and shiny as I would expect it after a car wash. The mistake was that I hadn't noticed there are only guys using the manual wash. The ladies all used the drive in. I enjoyed the experience of course, and the Sun. But I'm wondering, was this a push too far? I do acknowledge that there are certain things in life that should be left to men, so is this one? Guess I won't know unless I try a few more times ...

عاشق سهراب

کتاب عادت می کنیم رو در سفر خوندم ..... فکر کنم تاحالا دو بارعاشق شدم. اولین بار عاشق سهراب توی سووشون و بار دوم هم عاشق سهراب توی عادت می کنیم. شخصیتها ساده اند و واقعی .... البته شاید هم غیر واقعی ... جالیش به اینه که هر دو کتاب نویسنده زن دارند. یعنی همه ما یک سری خصوصیات رو دوست داریم؟ یا این کاملا تصادفی شده؟

شیرین ایستاد. حالا سهراب یا زرجو یا سهراب زرجو، یا هر کی. کسی که عوض کار کشیدن کمکت بکند. نه کمک مالی که تو احتیاج نداری. کمک روحی، فکری - چه می دانم چی. خلاصه باشد. بدانی کسی هست. به چیزی دلخوش باشی. می فهمی؟

عادت می کنیم -

happiness

Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony....